Hannarr's life

freak!

i have had the most amazing couple of  months ever and feel as if i should report it.

i finally got my life back on track. Just before christmass i found out my BDD had more or less gone. this made my year, causing an end to many other problems.

i then finally got a job and started rolling in the pounds. at this job i met the most amazing guy ever. as soon as i started talking to him there was this immediate connection and grew to be very found of him.

a few weeks later we ended up getting very drunkm sleeping together and having teh most amaizng conversation of my life. ”Hannah, i think i am in love with you. i ahve honestly never felt  this way about a girl before in my life.” I had majorly fallen for this guy. two days later we started going out.

I’m not one for all this lovey dovey crap, but i am majorly in love with this guy. It’s actually ridiculous. i have the best time ever with this guy. He is genuine and absoloutely hilarious.

3 weeks ago i met his friend nat. we got on really well straight away. james warned me of him. i took in what he’d said and didn’t really think anything of it. almost straight away he started flirting with me and ended up telling james i got naked with some guy in a cupboard and that i had said i fancied nat. this was complete bullshit.

James wouldn’t talk to me for a fewdays and we argued for a week. 6 days ago he came round and we talked everything through. everything was fine and sorted out. felt so relieved that i wasn’t going to loose him.

The next day James broke up with me. ”i don’t feel the same way i did two months ago..” i did not want to break up and still want to get back together. however, i have learnt that that is not going to happen and am starting to deal with the hurt. Haven’t cried this much in a week for a while..

now to tell another side to the story.

the day after we broke up i met up with my amazingly sexy friend. we had a bit to drink and ended up making out alot. a couple ov hours later we were semi naked in horsham park. this was actually an amazing evening, had a fucking good time. i am not complaining.

some people may say rebound sex is not the way to get over someone. but tbh i think it is. taking your mind off of someone by thinking of someone else makes perfect sense.

i get to see him tomorrow for a top up of rebound. must say i am excited. however, would rather be with james anyday..

eventful 2 months. its sad that we rnt together anymore, but i really have the feeling like it is an important chapter in my life.